terrible

I feel really terrible today. I had a presentation earlier today, with Joon being my partner. The presentation well really swell with Joon doing the talking, until it was my turn. I felt really bad for screwing it by with my stammering. I just wish I could chill sometimes man, BUT I WAS. So many times I calmed myself down but I still screwed it up. Also, I feel bad because I suck at doing research. I just think all my ideas or how I put my sentences in, suck big time and aren't acceptable.

I wish I was all intellectual, you know...
I wish I have confidence.

I also feel sad today because of this Taipei trip which I need to make my confirmation really soon. In addition, I am really mad that they're bringing us to a country which they knew all along is going to be typhoon season. As stated, we'll be staying in the hotel if there's going to be any typhoon. How stupid. They could've just plan on going some other safe country!!!!!!

Really PMS-ing at my best right now.
Feeling really down because mom's asleep and I want to discuss with her about this ):
Having night classes suck, I seriously can't spend time with my family on the weekdays!!!

Shit.