please

I woke up this morning crying again. I don't know what to feel about this situation I thought would NEVER happen again. I cannot believe it has been going on for about 6 years now. I thought it would stop. This problem can never be solved. I don't think it ever will, unless it stops itself. Therefore, I do not see the point in telling anyone about it. I am positive no one will ever know how to react to this, `cept maybe like 'OMG ARE YOU OK!?' and I do not need that. I do not want sympathy from anyone. All I really need from anyone is to help me stop this. And it hurts so bad that no one can save me from this. All I can do is cry whenever it happens, or when I think about it. Really. I used to try solving this problem but no one believed me and kept saying I was just over-reacting or that I was imagining things.

This isn't like any problem anyone has. This isn't about friendship or about any boy that has broken my heart. No. I cry about other things that are happening in this world than just those.